Today I’m still not in the mood of talking or chatting online. Sometimes I felt it’s kind of wasting time spending the rest of my day in front of the laptop just browsing through facebook, friendster, chatting through msn, ym, playing online game or working. Is there none other thing that I can do?
One of my friends posted a link on his daily devotional using “Through the Bible Through the Year” in facebook. Suddenly it recalls me that I have that book too! I remembered I bought this book together with an empty book for us to journal down as we read the book.
I took out the books this morning and flip through what have I jot down previously. As I’m going through it, I felt so guilty and sorry to God. When I bought the book, I was so fire for God that I had my devotional time almost everyday and jot down all the points as I read through the bible. I wrote down my prayers & my views but I cannot believe, it only last me for one month and then I stopped reading it. I gave myself many reasons for not having quiet time with God, such as working, online, outing, etc.
I write blog and I read people’s blog as well. Most of the blog that I read were usually shared about struggles in their life, feeling depressed, hurt, lonely, hopeless and so forth. I felt very pity for them and I have the urge for sharing Christ with them too. Life with God is so great and even if we go through crisis, we will still praise God. I understand as a human being, we definitely have emotion. And do you know emotion can actually blind us? We must get rid of these emotions and there is where we need God.
I am very thankful for my younger sister, Lacerena. She is the one who brought me to Christ. I came from a strong Buddhist family and I’m a very stubborn person. No one can force me to do anything if I don’t want to. Same goes to the religion. No matter how my sis shared with me on Christ, I just don’t want to listen. But because my relationship with my younger sisters was much closed, we always hang out & do things together.
One day Lacerena and I were invited by our colleague for a Christmas party. Although I’m not a Christian and does not know what Christmas is all about, when comes to party, who cares whether I’m a Christian or not, and I just agreed to go. The whole night spending time with those fellows Christian, I watched them. I just couldn’t describe what kind of joy they possessed? I have not seen people who are so joyful, so helpful and so friendly. I enjoyed so much that night.
From that night onwards, my colleague started to invite us to join their care/cell group. Fyi, cell group is a group where a few Christians (10-12 people) gather together once a week to fellowship with each other. Cell meetings may consist of a fellowship meal, communion, prayer, worship, sharing, bible study and discussion.
I joined the cell meeting a few times and finally accepted Christ after hearing one of the touching testimonies from a friend. I was still in doubt after accepting Christ and thinking if I have made a right decision? What happened if my family knows about it? What about my current religion? I felt like I have betrayed my God!
I shared this with Lacerena and she told me not to worry about all these things. Start reading bible and talk to God. If you are still not ready to become a Christian, God will not get angry. He will wait for you. I felt peace when I heard that. Thinking of “wah, your God so good wan ah, I accepted Christ and then don’t want to be Christian also God will not get angry?” Kind of flexible I talked to myself.
So I started reading bible and pray to God. With the help of the cell meetings, I got to know more about God & Jesus. I felt the relationship between me and God is getting closer. Can you believe it? A relationship with God??!! Wow, it’s so cool.
A lot of people don’t understand Christianity. They would think Christianity is boring and restricted by all kinds of rules. It is not!! Christianity is not a religion but a relationship. I did not have this kind of relationship when I was a Buddhist. But when I became a Christian, I know my purpose of life here. Somehow, God has changed my life.
I could not imagine what would I be if I’m not a Christian? I guess, I would be a rebellion child staying out from the family. Whenever I am down or feeling of giving up, I know God is always there for me. He will bring me back to Him when I’m lost.
I have wasted so much of my time this year. I hope it is not too late to get back to God again. I need to plan my time properly especially my quiet time with God.
Till then, it’s Sunday. I pray that everyone would have a great week ahead.
One of my friends posted a link on his daily devotional using “Through the Bible Through the Year” in facebook. Suddenly it recalls me that I have that book too! I remembered I bought this book together with an empty book for us to journal down as we read the book.
I took out the books this morning and flip through what have I jot down previously. As I’m going through it, I felt so guilty and sorry to God. When I bought the book, I was so fire for God that I had my devotional time almost everyday and jot down all the points as I read through the bible. I wrote down my prayers & my views but I cannot believe, it only last me for one month and then I stopped reading it. I gave myself many reasons for not having quiet time with God, such as working, online, outing, etc.
I write blog and I read people’s blog as well. Most of the blog that I read were usually shared about struggles in their life, feeling depressed, hurt, lonely, hopeless and so forth. I felt very pity for them and I have the urge for sharing Christ with them too. Life with God is so great and even if we go through crisis, we will still praise God. I understand as a human being, we definitely have emotion. And do you know emotion can actually blind us? We must get rid of these emotions and there is where we need God.
I am very thankful for my younger sister, Lacerena. She is the one who brought me to Christ. I came from a strong Buddhist family and I’m a very stubborn person. No one can force me to do anything if I don’t want to. Same goes to the religion. No matter how my sis shared with me on Christ, I just don’t want to listen. But because my relationship with my younger sisters was much closed, we always hang out & do things together.
One day Lacerena and I were invited by our colleague for a Christmas party. Although I’m not a Christian and does not know what Christmas is all about, when comes to party, who cares whether I’m a Christian or not, and I just agreed to go. The whole night spending time with those fellows Christian, I watched them. I just couldn’t describe what kind of joy they possessed? I have not seen people who are so joyful, so helpful and so friendly. I enjoyed so much that night.
From that night onwards, my colleague started to invite us to join their care/cell group. Fyi, cell group is a group where a few Christians (10-12 people) gather together once a week to fellowship with each other. Cell meetings may consist of a fellowship meal, communion, prayer, worship, sharing, bible study and discussion.
I joined the cell meeting a few times and finally accepted Christ after hearing one of the touching testimonies from a friend. I was still in doubt after accepting Christ and thinking if I have made a right decision? What happened if my family knows about it? What about my current religion? I felt like I have betrayed my God!
I shared this with Lacerena and she told me not to worry about all these things. Start reading bible and talk to God. If you are still not ready to become a Christian, God will not get angry. He will wait for you. I felt peace when I heard that. Thinking of “wah, your God so good wan ah, I accepted Christ and then don’t want to be Christian also God will not get angry?” Kind of flexible I talked to myself.
So I started reading bible and pray to God. With the help of the cell meetings, I got to know more about God & Jesus. I felt the relationship between me and God is getting closer. Can you believe it? A relationship with God??!! Wow, it’s so cool.
A lot of people don’t understand Christianity. They would think Christianity is boring and restricted by all kinds of rules. It is not!! Christianity is not a religion but a relationship. I did not have this kind of relationship when I was a Buddhist. But when I became a Christian, I know my purpose of life here. Somehow, God has changed my life.
I could not imagine what would I be if I’m not a Christian? I guess, I would be a rebellion child staying out from the family. Whenever I am down or feeling of giving up, I know God is always there for me. He will bring me back to Him when I’m lost.
I have wasted so much of my time this year. I hope it is not too late to get back to God again. I need to plan my time properly especially my quiet time with God.
Till then, it’s Sunday. I pray that everyone would have a great week ahead.
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