Ah Yat's Birthday Celebration in advance (20th June 09)

It's another year celebrating Ah Yat's (Kenny) birthday. Time flies and he is 21 years old now. I wonder if he has got his "key" from his parents already? hahaha..

We went to The Apartment at the Curve for a late dinner. After dinner about 11.30pm, we thought of hanging out at Sanctuary but Ah Yat doesnt want. I believe he was worried that we will go to take him out to the stage for a gig. :p So he suggested to go sing-k but unfortunately redbox was full house. We checked out Neway but they charged RM44++ per person. So expensive!!! In the end, we decided to go home.

So, that's the end of the program. :) But nevertheless, hope he enjoyed the night and may his wishes come true. :)

Happy birthday ah yat!!!

Two Kennys with the kid. Seems like potential being a father. haha...

Wonderful and Memorable Church Camp

I just came back from Church Camp yesterday after spending 4 days and 3 nights at Legend Hotel, KL. This camp was organized by Hope Singapore and my sister was one of the members there. So she brought us to the camp, my very first camp attending with my 2 lovely sisters.


It was more than 5 years since my first camp and I was so looking forward and excited to this camp. I joined my sister's cell group and they were very nice and friendly people. We have been very well taken care of by them and I cannot forget those touching moments when the cell leader give comments and handout a postcard to each of his cell members including calista and I. I was really touched by his action and thoughts.


We were sharing our objectives on what to expect in this camp at the end of the day and my only objective was to get close to God. I felt that I have been far away from God and I want to find the first love that I had for God when I first accepted Christ. During the altar call session, I went out and one of the sisters came and pray for me. She didn't ask what my prayer point is, instead, she told me that she could sense that God is telling her that there is a coldness in me who hunger for God's touch. I was so amazed on how God answered my prayer. I was really praying to God to fill me with fire again and to stand for God. At that night, I was so motivated and furthermore listening to all the teachings given by the pastors, I have so much to think and reflect back.


I really had a great time worshipping God and the fellowship with Rena's cell group members. I'm gonna miss them but nevertheless, Singapore is not too far from Malaysia. Will sure meet them very soon. It always good to be in the family of God with so much cares and love pour out to me. :)


Haven't really got all the pictures yet as those pictures taken from different people. Just a few here:

Sick Day

I was sick today. :( My head was spinning when i got up from bed. But since im on duty today, i have got no choice but still got up and buy breakfast for mom. After taking breakfast, i vomited twice. I quickly go take panadol and sleep for an hour. Then woke up and cook porridge. Yea, i cook porridge for myself lor.. suddenly felt so pity of me. :( But it's okay, cuz my sisters not around, so i have to be indenpendent. :)

After lunch i took panadol again and slept for 3 hours. Then i felt so much better and at least can face the PC. :) I thought i can do my work today, then at least i can take MC tomorrow. But don't think I'm able to finish it and furthermore, my bosses not around tomorrow, i have to be on standby in the office.

Anyway, I really thank God for all my friends who dropped comment on my facebook to check on me. Felt so touched.

My 1st day of Evening Class

Started my first day of English for Business at Utar College. We do not have any lecturing today but we sat for the placement test. The result will determine which class we should be placed under; whether high or low class. We'll see next week.

The placement test was quite tough especially thinking of one word to replace each phrases:
a) due to the fact that as
b) for the purpose of
c) from time to time
d) in reference to
e) in the amount of
f) in the event of
g) the vast majority of
h) in the very near future
i) it is imperative that
j) small and tiny micro-organisms

I just couldn't think of any better word. Well, anticipating the answers the next session :)

Oh ya, btw, it was a smooth n lucky day. As soon as I got down from my car this morning, i saw a one ringgit note on the floor, so i picked up. My colleague said you are lucky today to spot that note. True enough, my PO worth RM 2.6mio got signed by my 2 bosses without giving me a hard time. Praise the Lord!!!

Hardworking Day

I had been very hardworking today. I spent almost one day to figure out how much stocks I need to buy for my supplier. My supplier proposed me to buy RM4 mio worth of stocks for the month of June but unfortunately my boss doesn't approve. She has asked me to cut from RM4 mio to RM 2.5mio!!! Oh gosh..i was wondering how am I going to do that? My supplier is going to run promotion and campaign this month and if I don't order much for them and end up out of stocks, I will be in big trouble.

And so I spent the whole day analysing the proposal again by product, yes, it's by product which consist of 230 stockcodes. You can bet my eyes is getting watery & blur looking at the tiny numbers. I can't believe I really managed to bring it down the value to RM 2.6 mio. This is the best I could do and hope that I buy the right product and quantity. :)

Internally, I managed to bring down the value and I believe my bosses would sign for it. On supplier side, I have to explain to them the reason why I did not buy as per their proposal. But nevertheless, I do have facts to challenge them. Pray for a smooth discussion tomorrow.

Oh ya, tomorrow I will be starting my first class for Business English at Utar college. I'm so excited and looking forward to learn new things. I thank God for my company who willing to pay for my course. God has been so good to me.

My New Layout :)

Haha...after 5 months of silence, i finally back to blogspot. I have been influenced by Kenny who started back his blog recently since his last post...hmm..i think got one year ago... worst than me :p

Alright, here I am. Since I have not been updated for quite awhile, I decided to do something new by having a new layout for my blog. Unfortunately after I have changed it, everything gone; the chat history, my friend's link and my other gadget stuff. But it's ok, lets start it anew. I quite like my blog now. Something different.

Well, I have a lot to share/update but I have to get on bed now. It's midnight now. Good night and sweet dreams.

Cell Group

One of my resolutions in year 2009 is to settle down in a cell group. Calista and I had been having our honey moon for the last 2 years. We visited a few cell groups but yet still can’t find one to settle down.

Last Friday (09.01.09), Calista and I went and meet up one of the cells. This cell was recommended by my ex-colleague. I have been wanted to visit the cell too but always finding reason not to go. Now finally we met. That night we have no cell meeting but we went for dinner at The Curve. The cell members were quite friendly and we can click very well. Calista and I felt quite comfortable with them too.

We pray that this is the cell that God want us to be. And through this cell, we would be able to grow strongly in faith with God.

New Portfolio Commenced...

Happy New Year..

I have also started my new role in heading over Supplier and Supply Chain Management. It was really crazy in the beginning as I’ve been receiving emails non-stop. I always need to housekeep my mailbox everyday to avoid exceeding the quota. Every email I have to read and try to understand what the supplier’s request and to fulfill them. It is really challenging for me. Everyday I just asked God for the strength and wisdom as I perform my task.

Hope things would get better in the next few weeks to come. :)

New Year, New Resolutions, New Dreams

Like every blogger does, I also like to share my resolutions here, so that this will be my checklist when 2009 ends.

Last night during watchnight celebration, Pastor shared with us on what God has in-store for us in 2009. There are two key-words, Opportunity & Expansion and my resolution goes like this:

1. Make time for people
2. Find opportunity to share the love of God to people & save at least one person
3. Settle down in a cell group
4. Be a member of DUMC and join in at least one ministry
5. Spend time with God and read bible
6. Be grateful and appreciate things and people in my life
7. Think wisely and be mature
8. Lose another 5 kgs
9. Make another successful project
10. Be patient and control my temper

It seems a lot, but God’s willing, I will be able to make my dreams comes alive.

Whoever makes their resolutions; I wish all of you, good luck and keep it up for what you have committed. Don’t live a day with regrets.

God bless!!

Reflection of Year 2008

2008 has finally draws to a close. There were a lot of things happened through out the year

I would like to thank God for His everlasting love to me. Thanking God for giving me the strength and wisdom in all that I do.

My most unforgettable experience in 2008 was handling a project for my company. It was my very first project and it took 4 months to complete it and went LIVE by phases. The last phase will be in January 2009. With this, we will be able to close this project successfully.

During this period of time, I have learnt how to plan my time for projects and also my current portfolio. I have learnt new things from other department when we worked together. I have learnt that being a project coordinator is not easy. I need to communicate with all the users and ensure that I get all the users to participate on the briefing and perform testing. I have learnt that when you put in your effort to do something, you will reap what you sowed. I thank God despite all these challenges I encountered, in the end, I received a lot compliments from my colleagues and bosses on this project. This project has really helped us a lot and I’m glad it works. Praise be to God.

In terms of relationship, I have not met a right partner yet but I will patiently wait for God’s timing. On the other hand, the secret that I’ve kept for 2 years, I have finally said it out to that person. This person did not give me any answer and from his reaction, I knew the answer. Well, I’m glad I said it before end of 2008, so that in 2009, I can start fresh. Forget the past and moving forward.

In terms of health, I have started drinking Herbalife 3 months ago. It was a tremendous Nutrition products and I managed to lose 4 kgs in 2 months time. I should be able to lose more but due to my laziness, I only drink once a while. Luckily I still maintain the weight and did not increase. In 2009, I will go back to Herbalife until I achieve my targeted weight. :)

Well, that’s my journey in 2008 and I’m really looking forward for this New Year. I believe it would be a better year.

Happy New Year!!

The Meaning of Christmas

Why do people "celebrate" CHRISTmas (not "X'mas"), which is JESUS' BIRTHDAY, without understanding the significance of it?

Let me tell you what Christmas really means:

There was once a man who didn't believe in God, and he didn't hesitate to let others know how he felt about religion and religious holidays. His wife, however, did believe, and she raised their children to also have faith in God and Jesus, despite his disparaging comments. One snowy Eve, his wife was taking their children to service in the farm community in which they lived. They were to talk about Jesus' birth. She asked him to come, but he refused.

"That story is nonsense!" he said. "Why would God lower Himself to come to Earth as a man? That's ridiculous!"

So she and the children left, and he stayed home. A while later, the winds grew stronger and the snow turned into a blizzard. As the man looked out the window, all he saw was a blinding snowstorm. He sat down to relax before the fire for the evening. Then he heard a loud thump. Something had hit the window. He looked out, but couldn't see more than a few feet. When the snow let up a little, he ventured outside to see what could have been beating on his window.

In the field near his house he saw a flock of wild geese. Apparently they had been flying south for the winter when they got caught in the snowstorm and couldn't go on. They were lost and stranded on his farm, with no food or shelter. They just flapped their wings and flew around the field in low circles, blindly and aimlessly. A couple of them had flown into his window, it seemed.

The man felt sorry for the geese and wanted to help them. The barn would be a great place for them to stay, he thought. It's warm and safe; surely they could spend the night and wait out the storm. So he walked over to the barn and opened the doors wide, then watched and waited, hoping they would notice the open barn and go inside.

But the geese just fluttered around aimlessly and didn't seem to notice the barn or realize what it could mean for them. The man tried to get their attention, but that just seemed to scare them, and they moved further away. He went into the house and came with some bread, broke it up, and made a bread crumb trail leading to the barn. They still didn't catch on.

Now he was getting frustrated. He got behind them and tried to shoo them toward the barn, but they only got more scared and scattered in every direction except toward the barn. Nothing he did could get them to go into the barn where they would be warm and safe.

"Why don't they follow me?" he exclaimed. "Can't they see this is the only place where they can survive the storm?"

He thought for a moment and realized that they just wouldn't follow a human. "If only I were a goose, then I could save them," he said out loud. Then he had an idea. He went into barn, got one of his own geese, and carried it in his arms as he circled around behind the flock of wild geese.

He then released it. His goose flew through the flock and straight into the barn - and one-by-one, the other geese followed it to safety.

He stood silently for a moment as the words he had spoken a few minutes earlier replayed in his mind: "If only I were a goose, then I could save them!" Then he thought about what he had said to his wife earlier. "Why would God want to be like us? That's ridiculous!"

Suddenly it all made sense. That is what God had done. We were like the geese - blind, lost, perishing. God had His Son become like us so He could show us the way and save us.

As the winds and blinding snow died down, his soul became quiet and pondered this wonderful thought. Suddenly he understood why Christ had come. Years of doubt and disbelief vanished with the passing storm. He fell to his knees in the snow, and prayed his first prayer:

"Thank You, God, for coming in human form to get me out of the storm!"

We are the reason

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
'Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do, every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for HimFor Him...

We are the reason
That He gave His life
We are the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lostHe gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

He is my reason to live

A night to remember

很開心的一天. 他約我去吃飯了. 這一天的約會和我對他說的話, 我會深深的放在心裡面. 無論結果是好是壞, 都無所謂, 因為我終於做到我想要做的東西了.

累

我想了很久都不知道該怎樣寫或者該不該寫才好. 如過不寫, 放在心理也蠻難受的. 所以還是寫一點吧. 今天本來很好心情的, 不過為了一點小事情就破壞我的好心情了. 我不會說是誰, 也不要誤會. 不是男生. 只是覺的人,是很難去了解的.

為甚麼每次都要我開口先了? 又不是我的錯. 這次我不里, 不要說話就不要說嗎. 我很累了.

好了, 寫到這里就算啦. 我的話語太差勁了. 越寫越錯. ;(

晚安.

我懷念的

已經沒見他一個星期多了. 知道他最近很忙不過來. 看到他每次做到醬夜,感覺有點心疼. 有時后會留一段短訊支持他, 鼓勵他一下. 無論如何, 還是希望他工作順利.

真的很懷念以前的日子. 想起我們一起趕project的時後, 一起吃飯, 一起聊天. 現在他越來越忙了. 不知道甚麼時後才可以約在一起吃飯, catch up 一下呢?

First Service for my MYVI

Woke up at 7am this morning and sent my car to Perodua Service Centre at Sect 19. Luckily I’m early cuz it’s really a lot of people service their car at this time. I was wondering what am I got to do here while waiting for my car. I brought my laptop along just in case they have wi-fi here then I don’t mind to wait.

True enough when I stepped into the reception, a lot of things has changed. I think the last time that I visited this service centre was 6 years ago. The waiting area now is so advance, so neat & organized. Of course they have wi-fi, you can make your own drinks, can watch TV and they even have kid’s corner area. And the customer service personnel were very friendly and helpful.

I finished my service just an hour. It so great! I remembered the last service I came, I waited for 4 hours. Total service cost me RM230. Quite expensive tho but the technician said usually first service is that expensive. The next service will be much cheaper.

Anyway, it’s ok, as long as my baby (my car) gets the good service. :-)

The Appraisal (10.11.08)

My boss has invited me to attend the appraisal for the management trainee. Inside my boss’s room, she also invited another department manager as the management trainee report to her and sometimes me. I wonder if I were the management trainee, I would be scared to death. Is 3 against 1!!.

This appraisal took us 1 ½ hours to finished. The appraisal for this management trainee was not that good. We as her superior/mentor need to tell her the truth on her working performance in order for her to improve and excel in the future. We understand this is her first job and she needs to go through the working environment in a distributor company is not easy. Even for myself who had experienced in working, in my current company now, I have cried twice! I felt so pressure and stress working in this company that I have gave up twice too. But I thanked God for my boss who appreciated me so much that she didn’t want to lose me. In order to retain me, she thinks of other port-folio for me to explore. I’m so blessed to have such supportive and understanding boss. I always tell my friends and colleagues that my boss is the only reason that I want to stay and worked for her. She is such a humble boss to me and to her staff. I do not know why still some of my colleagues (or the reps) don’t like her. I understand she is a very analytical person but to me it’s good. I have learned so much from her in analyzing the data or reports (and eventually became an analyzer) and it’s quite interesting when you found out something from analyzing. Haha..

Anyway, this is not the main topic. Let’s get back to the appraisal’s story. Towards the end of the appraisal, she cried when the department manager asked her if she is too fierce. She didn’t say yes but her tears answered all. I know the department manager also feel sad and thought the reason the mgmt trainee cannot progress well is because of her. I tried to comfort the dept manager and also to tell the mgmt trainee that she has a wrong perception on this dept manager. I worked with this dept manager before and I know her working style. She wants things to get done as per agreed deadline. The reason she got angry I think is because the things couldn’t get done and the person who in-charge doing it kept quiet. I think this is not a good working attitude and that’s why she got frustrated.

Of course the dept manager also explained to the mgmt trainee on her expectation and frustration. In the end, she also shared with us her problems (the reps who gave her hectic), got accused by principal/customer. To my surprised, her tears rolling down as she shared. I have not seen such a tough lady like her would cry in front of us. My boss & I were stunned. I don’t know what to say/comment. It was my first experience of watching two ladies crying during appraisal. Phew… after hearing their sharing, looking at my own work problems, it is like nothing. I’ve learned to appreciate what I’m doing and complaint less.

My 2nd Mission - Gym (10.11.08)

I have always wanted to take dancing class as I really like dancing. So one day Calista & I were looking for real dance class somewhere in PJ but couldn't find one. So we thought why not signing up for gym. They have dance classes too and offer different type of dances. And there we go, signing up as a membership with True Fitness. It almost 8 months and so far we only attended one time for the RPM (cycling class). The first experience was unforgettable for us as it is so extreme exhausted. From that class onwards, we felt lazy to go and starting to find reasons.

Until last night, Calista & I give ourselves a chance again to go for Body Jam. My friend told me that the instructor is very good in Body Jam. And true enough, we really enjoyed the dance so much. We even can’t wait for the next class. :-)

Quiet Time

Today I’m still not in the mood of talking or chatting online. Sometimes I felt it’s kind of wasting time spending the rest of my day in front of the laptop just browsing through facebook, friendster, chatting through msn, ym, playing online game or working. Is there none other thing that I can do?

One of my friends posted a link on his daily devotional using “Through the Bible Through the Year” in facebook. Suddenly it recalls me that I have that book too! I remembered I bought this book together with an empty book for us to journal down as we read the book.

I took out the books this morning and flip through what have I jot down previously. As I’m going through it, I felt so guilty and sorry to God. When I bought the book, I was so fire for God that I had my devotional time almost everyday and jot down all the points as I read through the bible. I wrote down my prayers & my views but I cannot believe, it only last me for one month and then I stopped reading it. I gave myself many reasons for not having quiet time with God, such as working, online, outing, etc.

I write blog and I read people’s blog as well. Most of the blog that I read were usually shared about struggles in their life, feeling depressed, hurt, lonely, hopeless and so forth. I felt very pity for them and I have the urge for sharing Christ with them too. Life with God is so great and even if we go through crisis, we will still praise God. I understand as a human being, we definitely have emotion. And do you know emotion can actually blind us? We must get rid of these emotions and there is where we need God.

I am very thankful for my younger sister, Lacerena. She is the one who brought me to Christ. I came from a strong Buddhist family and I’m a very stubborn person. No one can force me to do anything if I don’t want to. Same goes to the religion. No matter how my sis shared with me on Christ, I just don’t want to listen. But because my relationship with my younger sisters was much closed, we always hang out & do things together.

One day Lacerena and I were invited by our colleague for a Christmas party. Although I’m not a Christian and does not know what Christmas is all about, when comes to party, who cares whether I’m a Christian or not, and I just agreed to go. The whole night spending time with those fellows Christian, I watched them. I just couldn’t describe what kind of joy they possessed? I have not seen people who are so joyful, so helpful and so friendly. I enjoyed so much that night.

From that night onwards, my colleague started to invite us to join their care/cell group. Fyi, cell group is a group where a few Christians (10-12 people) gather together once a week to fellowship with each other. Cell meetings may consist of a fellowship meal, communion, prayer, worship, sharing, bible study and discussion.

I joined the cell meeting a few times and finally accepted Christ after hearing one of the touching testimonies from a friend. I was still in doubt after accepting Christ and thinking if I have made a right decision? What happened if my family knows about it? What about my current religion? I felt like I have betrayed my God!

I shared this with Lacerena and she told me not to worry about all these things. Start reading bible and talk to God. If you are still not ready to become a Christian, God will not get angry. He will wait for you. I felt peace when I heard that. Thinking of “wah, your God so good wan ah, I accepted Christ and then don’t want to be Christian also God will not get angry?” Kind of flexible I talked to myself.

So I started reading bible and pray to God. With the help of the cell meetings, I got to know more about God & Jesus. I felt the relationship between me and God is getting closer. Can you believe it? A relationship with God??!! Wow, it’s so cool.

A lot of people don’t understand Christianity. They would think Christianity is boring and restricted by all kinds of rules. It is not!! Christianity is not a religion but a relationship. I did not have this kind of relationship when I was a Buddhist. But when I became a Christian, I know my purpose of life here. Somehow, God has changed my life.
I could not imagine what would I be if I’m not a Christian? I guess, I would be a rebellion child staying out from the family. Whenever I am down or feeling of giving up, I know God is always there for me. He will bring me back to Him when I’m lost.

I have wasted so much of my time this year. I hope it is not too late to get back to God again. I need to plan my time properly especially my quiet time with God.

Till then, it’s Sunday. I pray that everyone would have a great week ahead.

Promises

Today I felt quite moody, doesn’t want to talk much. I don’t know why, maybe something that has been planned did not work out. Feeling of disappointed but it’s okay. I have already used to this kind of feeling. It’s always like that, hoping and eventually disappointed. It has somehow makes me don’t dare to hope anymore because I scared of disappointment again and again. Although I know I may be disappointed if things don’t work out, I still hope and looking forward. Human nature..sigh.. Perhaps I should hope only 40% so I won’t feel that hurt in the end. Haha…

Nowadays it’s so hard to find someone who can keep their promise. I mean even for myself. A lot of time I got so angry with someone who can’t fulfill what they have said or promise. It’s so simple, make a clear statement. Once you say “ok” or “yes” then it is an agreement between you and the other party and you should fulfill what you have said. If you are not sure, say you are not sure and provide alternative solution if possible or just said “No”.

I met a lot of these people (especially sales person whom I worked with) who said can do can do..but then nothing happen. My sis told me those sales people are born to be like that. They always talked nice just to make you feel happy or another word, just to shut your mouth. Well, I really don’t agree. Whether you are sales person or not, you should be responsible of every word you said to the customer or friends. This is how people can put their trust in you.

Of course, people are not perfect. I must confess that I am one of it among the sales person. I have made a lot promises to God but I can’t fulfill it. I know I have disappointed God so many times and yet, He still love me. Shouldn’t I learn from Him, my big hearted God who forgave every sinner? Why am I still holding the grudge then? If I myself cannot do what I’ve promised, then I should have no right to complain about others.

Alright alright…that’s it. I should let go. It’s time for me to list down the promises that I’ve made to God and fulfill it one by one. ;)

Have a wonderful & blessed weekend.

Another Promotion or New Port Folio??

My boss took me in to her room this morning and I thought what big thing has happened? She told me that she is thinking of restructuring where she needs someone to drive the sales management as well as someone to drive the principal care management for the department. She asked me to consider taking up this new portfolio as the leader of principal care management. There will be 2 supply chain executives under my supervision who will in-charged of the daily operation duties. While myself will be overseeing the execs and at the same time explore on some new projects or standardizing the current processes which can improve and bring benefit to the organization.

I was quite convinced with her approached & interested in this new venture and I'm prepared to give it a try. I believe this is a good moving path for me. Anyway, still need to wait for the confirmation from my boss and meanwhile, I can do some homework to brush up myself. As this new portfolio need to meet a lot of principals (potential and current), therefore, I better prepare myself in advance. Gambateh stephy!! ;)