Coming back to the heart of Worship

I couldn’t remember when my last time was going to church. This morning, thank God that my brother doesn’t need me to swap duty with him and so off I went to church. Today’s feeling is very different from other Sunday. Maybe because it’s been awhile that I didn’t go to church.

I prayed to God and asked for His forgiveness before I start my journey. I have been a very disobedient child. I often find reasons not to read bible, find reasons not to have quiet time with God, find reasons not to go church and even find reasons not to attend cell but I can’t find any reasons not to online and log in to my favorite MSN and facebook.

This morning was a baptism day in my church. There were around 15-20 persons baptizing. The couple who really catches my eyes was an old lady and an old man. I guess both were around late 50s or early 60s. I was imagining when I will see my family members baptizing especially my parents. This both aunty and uncle have chosen the right path and I feel happy for them. As the baptism ceremony goes on, the Holy Spirit kept on prompting to me and brought me back in year 2002, Christmas Day.

I was baptized with my younger sister with the witness from my mom and siblings. That was my most happiest and unforgettable moment in my life. My sister and I (being the first-two Christians in the family) had went through many hardships convincing and proving to our family members that we have found the meaning of life; Life with our creator, our Heavenly Father, who sent His only son, Jesus Christ to die for us and how our lives has changed.

When Pastor prays for the candidates, I recall the commitments that I have made to God on my baptism day. How I want to know Him better, how I want to be an obedient child, how I want to reach out to people and save them. But what am I doing now? How much and how deep do I know God? How many chapters have I read in the bible? And how many lives have I saved?

The whole service I was so disturbed by all these questions in my heart & I felt so guilty. I just can’t control my tears and felt so sorry to God. When brother Gilbert lead us to a closing song, “Lord You are Always here with me”, I closed my eyes and asked God to forgive me and give me another chance to come back to Him. No matter how disobedient I am and how much sins I have committed, God is always here with me, blessing me at the background. Where can I find a God that never gives up on me even though I have given up on Him?

Wonderful and Memorable Church Camp

I just came back from Church Camp yesterday after spending 4 days and 3 nights at Legend Hotel, KL. This camp was organized by Hope Singapore and my sister was one of the members there. So she brought us to the camp, my very first camp attending with my 2 lovely sisters.


It was more than 5 years since my first camp and I was so looking forward and excited to this camp. I joined my sister's cell group and they were very nice and friendly people. We have been very well taken care of by them and I cannot forget those touching moments when the cell leader give comments and handout a postcard to each of his cell members including calista and I. I was really touched by his action and thoughts.


We were sharing our objectives on what to expect in this camp at the end of the day and my only objective was to get close to God. I felt that I have been far away from God and I want to find the first love that I had for God when I first accepted Christ. During the altar call session, I went out and one of the sisters came and pray for me. She didn't ask what my prayer point is, instead, she told me that she could sense that God is telling her that there is a coldness in me who hunger for God's touch. I was so amazed on how God answered my prayer. I was really praying to God to fill me with fire again and to stand for God. At that night, I was so motivated and furthermore listening to all the teachings given by the pastors, I have so much to think and reflect back.


I really had a great time worshipping God and the fellowship with Rena's cell group members. I'm gonna miss them but nevertheless, Singapore is not too far from Malaysia. Will sure meet them very soon. It always good to be in the family of God with so much cares and love pour out to me. :)


Haven't really got all the pictures yet as those pictures taken from different people. Just a few here:

My 1st day of Evening Class

Started my first day of English for Business at Utar College. We do not have any lecturing today but we sat for the placement test. The result will determine which class we should be placed under; whether high or low class. We'll see next week.

The placement test was quite tough especially thinking of one word to replace each phrases:
a) due to the fact that as
b) for the purpose of
c) from time to time
d) in reference to
e) in the amount of
f) in the event of
g) the vast majority of
h) in the very near future
i) it is imperative that
j) small and tiny micro-organisms

I just couldn't think of any better word. Well, anticipating the answers the next session :)

Oh ya, btw, it was a smooth n lucky day. As soon as I got down from my car this morning, i saw a one ringgit note on the floor, so i picked up. My colleague said you are lucky today to spot that note. True enough, my PO worth RM 2.6mio got signed by my 2 bosses without giving me a hard time. Praise the Lord!!!

Hardworking Day

I had been very hardworking today. I spent almost one day to figure out how much stocks I need to buy for my supplier. My supplier proposed me to buy RM4 mio worth of stocks for the month of June but unfortunately my boss doesn't approve. She has asked me to cut from RM4 mio to RM 2.5mio!!! Oh gosh..i was wondering how am I going to do that? My supplier is going to run promotion and campaign this month and if I don't order much for them and end up out of stocks, I will be in big trouble.

And so I spent the whole day analysing the proposal again by product, yes, it's by product which consist of 230 stockcodes. You can bet my eyes is getting watery & blur looking at the tiny numbers. I can't believe I really managed to bring it down the value to RM 2.6 mio. This is the best I could do and hope that I buy the right product and quantity. :)

Internally, I managed to bring down the value and I believe my bosses would sign for it. On supplier side, I have to explain to them the reason why I did not buy as per their proposal. But nevertheless, I do have facts to challenge them. Pray for a smooth discussion tomorrow.

Oh ya, tomorrow I will be starting my first class for Business English at Utar college. I'm so excited and looking forward to learn new things. I thank God for my company who willing to pay for my course. God has been so good to me.