Thursday, July 09, 2009

Sad, Hurt & Disappointed

I wanted to post about my feeling now but in the end I decided to erased it all and cut the story short because the more I continue to type the more I feel hurt and disappointed. I don't want to get the whole house flooded or swollen eyes tomorrow. I've been keeping in my heart for more than a week and if I don't let it out, I scared the situation will get worst.

I wonder how long a person can angry with another person. Seriously I really don't like this kind of feeling. I am really sad, hurt and disappointed that you would behave like this. Am I really that bad to deserve how you treated me? I thought things will get better after I came back from Spore but unfortunately it doesn't. I wanted to reconcile with you but I don't know how to start or should I start first? I admit I'm not as tough as you. I cried to the Lord two times of our current situation. Did you? I wonder if you care about the relationship and would you want to carry on like this?

Right now, I just want to commit to God and pray to Him for opportunity to mend this broken relationship and remove all the scars in my heart or maybe yours.

2 comments:

Lacerena said...

Jie, i know how u feel...i've been thru that too...but always rmbr God doesnt want to see His child like this..Do you know this will hurt daddy god even more to see u unhappy...All He wants is to see you happily for Him..

Is hard to forgive someone but always rmbr we will be happier if we do it..

Jia You Jie!!!

Stephy: said...

thanks sis. i know n got what you mean. pls give me some time.