當我最忙的是後,這消息突然來了.聽到他要離開了,真的很傷心.以前他還在這裡做工的時候,還會有機會遇見他.但是現在沒了.他的離開我知道是遲早的事,不過沒有想到這麼快.
怎麼辦呢??到現在還放不下.从那天跟他說了之後,他完全變了另外一个人.看到我裝沒看到.沒有以前聊的那麼開心了.一切的回憶就好想百紙一樣. 覺得很心痛,很可惜. 回想過來,如果沒有跟他說的話,我們現在的關係會不會好很多呢?
天啊,快點幫我洗腦啦!!然後放多多開心的事在裡面,那我就會開心起來了!!!
Showing posts with label Sad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Sad. Show all posts
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Appreciate everyone's in your life, whether is family or friends.
Last Wednesday I attended Chee Mun’s funeral with Calista. Chee Mun was Calista’s colleague’s (Shirene) brother. I heard about Chee Mun for some time through Calista. Our relationship is a bit complicated. Calista’s colleague so happen to be my schoolmate whom we did not keep in touch at all. And Chee Mun is also considering our schoolmate because he studied the same primary school as we are.
Chee Mun was diagnosed with cancer since last year. I do not know what kind of cancer but something related to cell or soft tissues. It is a very rare cancer and in Malaysia, he is the first patient. Meaning to say, there is no medication that can help him other than morphine to subside the pain in him. The last time I visited him together with Calista was in end May 09 at Damansara Specialist Hospital. During that time he looks good although Shirene told us that his brother had been ill. We saw both of his legs were swollen. He can’t lie down on the bed or walk. So all day long he will only sit on an arm-chair. I felt so pity for him. He is only 22 years old and he has got so many things to do. I can see how weary and worried his mom is seeing at his son’s condition and furthermore this is the only son she has apart from the two daughters.
Well, we chatted with him for awhile and Calista gave him a card that she made and a box with full of encouragement bible verses. He was very touched and happy. Before we went home, we said that we will visit him again. Unfortunately on Tuesday (28/7/09), Calista sms me that Chee Mun has passed away. I was really shocked and sad when I saw the message. I felt so guilty for not visiting him when we said we will. I just feel so bad. We wanted to visit him all these while but now, there is no more chance. The lesson that I’ve learnt here is “don’t wait”. Whatever things that you feel like doing, just do it especially when you do it for a person.
One thing that Calista and I felt happy is that he accepted Jesus Christ before he leaved the world. At least we all know he is now united with God and he doesn’t have to suffer anymore.
Rest in Peace, Chee Mun and you will forever be remembered.
(Chee Mun's family pic. That guy behind is Chee Mun and Shirene is sitting on the right)
Chee Mun was diagnosed with cancer since last year. I do not know what kind of cancer but something related to cell or soft tissues. It is a very rare cancer and in Malaysia, he is the first patient. Meaning to say, there is no medication that can help him other than morphine to subside the pain in him. The last time I visited him together with Calista was in end May 09 at Damansara Specialist Hospital. During that time he looks good although Shirene told us that his brother had been ill. We saw both of his legs were swollen. He can’t lie down on the bed or walk. So all day long he will only sit on an arm-chair. I felt so pity for him. He is only 22 years old and he has got so many things to do. I can see how weary and worried his mom is seeing at his son’s condition and furthermore this is the only son she has apart from the two daughters.
Well, we chatted with him for awhile and Calista gave him a card that she made and a box with full of encouragement bible verses. He was very touched and happy. Before we went home, we said that we will visit him again. Unfortunately on Tuesday (28/7/09), Calista sms me that Chee Mun has passed away. I was really shocked and sad when I saw the message. I felt so guilty for not visiting him when we said we will. I just feel so bad. We wanted to visit him all these while but now, there is no more chance. The lesson that I’ve learnt here is “don’t wait”. Whatever things that you feel like doing, just do it especially when you do it for a person.
One thing that Calista and I felt happy is that he accepted Jesus Christ before he leaved the world. At least we all know he is now united with God and he doesn’t have to suffer anymore.
Rest in Peace, Chee Mun and you will forever be remembered.
(Chee Mun's family pic. That guy behind is Chee Mun and Shirene is sitting on the right)
Friday, July 24, 2009
Learn to Say NO!!
Why is it so hard to find someone to compromise? Why can’t people help each other with a willing heart? Why can’t they be more understanding?
I felt too much of a restriction until I am not able to do the things I want or have an outing with friends. Sometimes I just felt so difficult to communicate with them because they aren’t an understanding person. I just feel very tired asking favor from people because every time I asked, their face, their expression just making me put a stop.
Looking at their response, I tell myself, see, when people asked a favor from you, you will always say yes. And now in return, that’s what you got!!
People can say “No” easily but I can’t. Perhaps next time I must try to say “No”. I don’t care if they feel offended or disappointed. I just don’t care anymore.
I felt too much of a restriction until I am not able to do the things I want or have an outing with friends. Sometimes I just felt so difficult to communicate with them because they aren’t an understanding person. I just feel very tired asking favor from people because every time I asked, their face, their expression just making me put a stop.
Looking at their response, I tell myself, see, when people asked a favor from you, you will always say yes. And now in return, that’s what you got!!
People can say “No” easily but I can’t. Perhaps next time I must try to say “No”. I don’t care if they feel offended or disappointed. I just don’t care anymore.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
突然好想你也是最後的想你
I missed you.
I was browsing thru some of my files in the computer and found some pictures that we had taken together before. It brings back all the memories we had in the past few years. I missed the conversation with you where we can chat everything and anything over the phone. I missed the time we used to hang out for lunch or dinner just to catch up with each other and share our work stress. I missed the time when you came to my workstation to say Hi and grab my fisherman's sweet to eat. But now when you come to my floor, you acted that you never see me and find other way out. All these old memories has been crashed.
I wish I could turn back time that I never say those words to you. Since I can't, I wish I have lesser opportunity to work with you. I wish I have someone to think of to replace you in my memory. I wish I don't have to bump into you so often. I wish either one of us will not work in the same company so that I won't give myself a chance to think of you.
This would be my last time expressing my feelings about you and the last time I miss you.
I was browsing thru some of my files in the computer and found some pictures that we had taken together before. It brings back all the memories we had in the past few years. I missed the conversation with you where we can chat everything and anything over the phone. I missed the time we used to hang out for lunch or dinner just to catch up with each other and share our work stress. I missed the time when you came to my workstation to say Hi and grab my fisherman's sweet to eat. But now when you come to my floor, you acted that you never see me and find other way out. All these old memories has been crashed.
I wish I could turn back time that I never say those words to you. Since I can't, I wish I have lesser opportunity to work with you. I wish I have someone to think of to replace you in my memory. I wish I don't have to bump into you so often. I wish either one of us will not work in the same company so that I won't give myself a chance to think of you.
This would be my last time expressing my feelings about you and the last time I miss you.
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Sad, Hurt & Disappointed
I wanted to post about my feeling now but in the end I decided to erased it all and cut the story short because the more I continue to type the more I feel hurt and disappointed. I don't want to get the whole house flooded or swollen eyes tomorrow. I've been keeping in my heart for more than a week and if I don't let it out, I scared the situation will get worst.
I wonder how long a person can angry with another person. Seriously I really don't like this kind of feeling. I am really sad, hurt and disappointed that you would behave like this. Am I really that bad to deserve how you treated me? I thought things will get better after I came back from Spore but unfortunately it doesn't. I wanted to reconcile with you but I don't know how to start or should I start first? I admit I'm not as tough as you. I cried to the Lord two times of our current situation. Did you? I wonder if you care about the relationship and would you want to carry on like this?
Right now, I just want to commit to God and pray to Him for opportunity to mend this broken relationship and remove all the scars in my heart or maybe yours.
I wonder how long a person can angry with another person. Seriously I really don't like this kind of feeling. I am really sad, hurt and disappointed that you would behave like this. Am I really that bad to deserve how you treated me? I thought things will get better after I came back from Spore but unfortunately it doesn't. I wanted to reconcile with you but I don't know how to start or should I start first? I admit I'm not as tough as you. I cried to the Lord two times of our current situation. Did you? I wonder if you care about the relationship and would you want to carry on like this?
Right now, I just want to commit to God and pray to Him for opportunity to mend this broken relationship and remove all the scars in my heart or maybe yours.
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