My Birthday Celebration (18/7/09)-Part 1

Although my happy mood is not fully recover, I guess I still need to blog on my birthday celebration (as requested by Jerome..hehe..) before the month of July ends.

It happens on 18th July (Saturday). I was not on duty (duty means taking care of mom at home) on that day and I have initially thought of having a rest day at home. I don’t need to wake up so early and can take my own sweet time to lepak at home and at night we will hang out with Kenny & Ah Yat. Unfortunately Calista told me she need to work on Saturday and because we car pool, I have to go out together with her in the morning. She asked me to go to work while waiting for her. I was very disappointed at that time because my initial plan didn’t work out and furthermore I was asked to work when I don’t feel like working.

On Saturday, Calista said she will come and pick me up from office by 2pm and will try to make it earlier because our outing time is at 4pm. So I waited until 1.30pm and at 2pm also she hasn’t call. I knew again she won’t be able to make it on time. I was getting a little bit mad because I don’t like people who promised a certain time and not able to make it. In fact, my other sister, Jenny called me and asks if I want her to pick me up to her house first. I told her if Calista is still late, then I might as well wait at her house. So, she finally came to pick me up.

At 3pm, Kenny sent me a msg saying that they can’t meet up with us already cuz Ah Yat got something to do. At that time, it’s very suspicious already. I told Jenny, this better be true, if I know they trying to trick me, they are going to get from me. Although my instinct told me something not right here, in my heart, I’m still angry with Calista. I shared with Jenny how disappointed I am. My initial plan was cancelled and I had to go to work. Calista was late to fetch me and now Kenny said not able to meet up. I am very angry and feel like crying cuz it’s my birthday!!! How can they treat me like this?

So when I reached Jenny’s house, there they are coming out from one of the room and Calista was carrying a tray of cupcakes. I was so surprised and touched but I didn’t shed a tear. I guess is because I already cried a little in the car and was still hot in me. I don’t know how to express myself when I saw them. But in my heart, I’m really touched and happy.

I didn’t know Calista said she need to work is to go to Jenny’s house to bake cup cakes for me. But still, shouldn’t ask me to go to work mar… and some more I can’t sleep late. :(

After that, we just spend time at Jenny’s house cuz the next plan is to go for dinner at 6.30pm. I just get myself prepared and opened up my present that Kennys bought. It was a dress! I’m so surprised that they will buy me a dress. I wonder how they know or guess my size. Haha… luckily I can fit in. But if I lose a little bit weight will look better with that dress. ;)

They were very secretive and didn’t let me know what the plans are for the day. So I just wait and see. They brought me to Happy 4 Seasons where there are 4 seasons inside the restaurant. Of course we chose the winter season to have dinner. It was really cold and the environment also not bad. Autumn is nice too but a little bit warm. The food is so-so only, not very delicious.

So after dinner, we went to Pavillion to catch a movie. It’s the Ice Age 3 (in 3D) that we are waiting for. Overall, the outing was great despite some mixture feelings I had in the beginning. A lot of new experiences I had like watching 3D movie, having dinner in winter season, having so many cupcakes, etc.

Thanks so much to my sisters (Calista, Jenny and family), Kenny, Ah Yat, Elaine and Ang. This would be one of the memorable birthday celebrations I had.

Learn to Say NO!!

Why is it so hard to find someone to compromise? Why can’t people help each other with a willing heart? Why can’t they be more understanding?

I felt too much of a restriction until I am not able to do the things I want or have an outing with friends. Sometimes I just felt so difficult to communicate with them because they aren’t an understanding person. I just feel very tired asking favor from people because every time I asked, their face, their expression just making me put a stop.

Looking at their response, I tell myself, see, when people asked a favor from you, you will always say yes. And now in return, that’s what you got!!

People can say “No” easily but I can’t. Perhaps next time I must try to say “No”. I don’t care if they feel offended or disappointed. I just don’t care anymore.

Feeling bored and tired

Due to working late for the last few nights, I just don't feel like or does not have the stamina to continue tonight. So I decided to check out my facebook and update my blog.

Was feeling a bit relax this 2 days as all the HODs were at Bali now for their offsite meeting. I can freely do my work this 2 days quietly. Too bad that I have meeting tomorrow morning, means I've wasted half of the day already. Hopefully can finish early and have a good lunch with my lunch buddies. :)

Talking about lunch, gosh..im increasing my weight again. My my...i supposed to take my herbalife la.. hehe... Nevermind, fat fat la.. :p

Anyway, looking at next week's agenda:

Monday - ISO audit
Tuesday & Wednesday - Leadership and Business Communication training
Thursday - usual work day
Friday - half day meeting

There go my week. How I wish I don't have training on Tuesday, so that I can take leave. It's my special day leh..:(

By right on Tuesday night I have company's dinner at TGIF, The Curve, but I got my English Class. So I have to decline this invite. Sigh...nothing special for me on Tuesday ady...

突然好想你也是最後的想你

I missed you.

I was browsing thru some of my files in the computer and found some pictures that we had taken together before. It brings back all the memories we had in the past few years. I missed the conversation with you where we can chat everything and anything over the phone. I missed the time we used to hang out for lunch or dinner just to catch up with each other and share our work stress. I missed the time when you came to my workstation to say Hi and grab my fisherman's sweet to eat. But now when you come to my floor, you acted that you never see me and find other way out. All these old memories has been crashed.

I wish I could turn back time that I never say those words to you. Since I can't, I wish I have lesser opportunity to work with you. I wish I have someone to think of to replace you in my memory. I wish I don't have to bump into you so often. I wish either one of us will not work in the same company so that I won't give myself a chance to think of you.

This would be my last time expressing my feelings about you and the last time I miss you.

Sad, Hurt & Disappointed

I wanted to post about my feeling now but in the end I decided to erased it all and cut the story short because the more I continue to type the more I feel hurt and disappointed. I don't want to get the whole house flooded or swollen eyes tomorrow. I've been keeping in my heart for more than a week and if I don't let it out, I scared the situation will get worst.

I wonder how long a person can angry with another person. Seriously I really don't like this kind of feeling. I am really sad, hurt and disappointed that you would behave like this. Am I really that bad to deserve how you treated me? I thought things will get better after I came back from Spore but unfortunately it doesn't. I wanted to reconcile with you but I don't know how to start or should I start first? I admit I'm not as tough as you. I cried to the Lord two times of our current situation. Did you? I wonder if you care about the relationship and would you want to carry on like this?

Right now, I just want to commit to God and pray to Him for opportunity to mend this broken relationship and remove all the scars in my heart or maybe yours.