So no mood

I've been hearing a lot of sad news recently:

(i) Friend's brother diagnosed with cancer
(ii) Sister in-law's father admitted to hospital because of heart attack
(iii) My sister not well
(iv) My dad's eyes not well


I hope there is no more addition on top of this because I scared I cannot take it. When I know that my sister is not well in Spore, it has really affected me and I don't have the mood to continue my work. I just felt like I want to go and see her immediately because I know she need our support and care. She is my 2nd younger sister and by right she should stay with us and enjoy being the younger sibling in the family. But because of her work, she need to learned to become strong and independent. She has in a way made me proud of her.


I always cannot understand what are the feelings staying away from home until I experienced myself with the recent trip to Bangkok. It was my very first trip travelling alone. I really don't like to travel alone or go shopping alone but I know I have to step out of it one day. Staying alone in the hotel is seriously no fun. I cant imagine how my sis take it staying away from home for many years. She told me she sometimes felt lonely and hopeless especially when she fall sick. It makes my heart so pain when I imagine there is no one there to take care of her, cook porridge for her, bring her to see doctor, etc.


I thanked God that my sis just came online. At least I know she is okay. My tears just can't stop falling down although I wanted to chat with her so much. I know I can't chat with this feeling because I don't want to make her even more depressed and sad. She has really gone through a lot and I really don't understand why God kept on testing her but I trust in you, God. I ask that you look with mercy and grace towards her. Nourish her spirit and sould in this time of suffering and comfort her with your presence. Let her know you are there with her through this difficulty. Amen.

Ah Yat's Birthday Celebration in advance (20th June 09)

It's another year celebrating Ah Yat's (Kenny) birthday. Time flies and he is 21 years old now. I wonder if he has got his "key" from his parents already? hahaha..

We went to The Apartment at the Curve for a late dinner. After dinner about 11.30pm, we thought of hanging out at Sanctuary but Ah Yat doesnt want. I believe he was worried that we will go to take him out to the stage for a gig. :p So he suggested to go sing-k but unfortunately redbox was full house. We checked out Neway but they charged RM44++ per person. So expensive!!! In the end, we decided to go home.

So, that's the end of the program. :) But nevertheless, hope he enjoyed the night and may his wishes come true. :)

Happy birthday ah yat!!!

Two Kennys with the kid. Seems like potential being a father. haha...

Wonderful and Memorable Church Camp

I just came back from Church Camp yesterday after spending 4 days and 3 nights at Legend Hotel, KL. This camp was organized by Hope Singapore and my sister was one of the members there. So she brought us to the camp, my very first camp attending with my 2 lovely sisters.


It was more than 5 years since my first camp and I was so looking forward and excited to this camp. I joined my sister's cell group and they were very nice and friendly people. We have been very well taken care of by them and I cannot forget those touching moments when the cell leader give comments and handout a postcard to each of his cell members including calista and I. I was really touched by his action and thoughts.


We were sharing our objectives on what to expect in this camp at the end of the day and my only objective was to get close to God. I felt that I have been far away from God and I want to find the first love that I had for God when I first accepted Christ. During the altar call session, I went out and one of the sisters came and pray for me. She didn't ask what my prayer point is, instead, she told me that she could sense that God is telling her that there is a coldness in me who hunger for God's touch. I was so amazed on how God answered my prayer. I was really praying to God to fill me with fire again and to stand for God. At that night, I was so motivated and furthermore listening to all the teachings given by the pastors, I have so much to think and reflect back.


I really had a great time worshipping God and the fellowship with Rena's cell group members. I'm gonna miss them but nevertheless, Singapore is not too far from Malaysia. Will sure meet them very soon. It always good to be in the family of God with so much cares and love pour out to me. :)


Haven't really got all the pictures yet as those pictures taken from different people. Just a few here:

Sick Day

I was sick today. :( My head was spinning when i got up from bed. But since im on duty today, i have got no choice but still got up and buy breakfast for mom. After taking breakfast, i vomited twice. I quickly go take panadol and sleep for an hour. Then woke up and cook porridge. Yea, i cook porridge for myself lor.. suddenly felt so pity of me. :( But it's okay, cuz my sisters not around, so i have to be indenpendent. :)

After lunch i took panadol again and slept for 3 hours. Then i felt so much better and at least can face the PC. :) I thought i can do my work today, then at least i can take MC tomorrow. But don't think I'm able to finish it and furthermore, my bosses not around tomorrow, i have to be on standby in the office.

Anyway, I really thank God for all my friends who dropped comment on my facebook to check on me. Felt so touched.

My 1st day of Evening Class

Started my first day of English for Business at Utar College. We do not have any lecturing today but we sat for the placement test. The result will determine which class we should be placed under; whether high or low class. We'll see next week.

The placement test was quite tough especially thinking of one word to replace each phrases:
a) due to the fact that as
b) for the purpose of
c) from time to time
d) in reference to
e) in the amount of
f) in the event of
g) the vast majority of
h) in the very near future
i) it is imperative that
j) small and tiny micro-organisms

I just couldn't think of any better word. Well, anticipating the answers the next session :)

Oh ya, btw, it was a smooth n lucky day. As soon as I got down from my car this morning, i saw a one ringgit note on the floor, so i picked up. My colleague said you are lucky today to spot that note. True enough, my PO worth RM 2.6mio got signed by my 2 bosses without giving me a hard time. Praise the Lord!!!

Hardworking Day

I had been very hardworking today. I spent almost one day to figure out how much stocks I need to buy for my supplier. My supplier proposed me to buy RM4 mio worth of stocks for the month of June but unfortunately my boss doesn't approve. She has asked me to cut from RM4 mio to RM 2.5mio!!! Oh gosh..i was wondering how am I going to do that? My supplier is going to run promotion and campaign this month and if I don't order much for them and end up out of stocks, I will be in big trouble.

And so I spent the whole day analysing the proposal again by product, yes, it's by product which consist of 230 stockcodes. You can bet my eyes is getting watery & blur looking at the tiny numbers. I can't believe I really managed to bring it down the value to RM 2.6 mio. This is the best I could do and hope that I buy the right product and quantity. :)

Internally, I managed to bring down the value and I believe my bosses would sign for it. On supplier side, I have to explain to them the reason why I did not buy as per their proposal. But nevertheless, I do have facts to challenge them. Pray for a smooth discussion tomorrow.

Oh ya, tomorrow I will be starting my first class for Business English at Utar college. I'm so excited and looking forward to learn new things. I thank God for my company who willing to pay for my course. God has been so good to me.